Monday, June 23, 2014

10 months later

Today is June 23rd. Today marks 10 months since I underwent surgery to remove a brain tumor. It is amazing to think it has really been that long. I can remember that day like it happened yesterday. Ten months ago today, my life was changed forever. It began one of the darkest times in my life, and yet the light and healing that would eventually follow was the most beautiful experience. A friend of mine once penned this line: "The darkest moments illuminate our identity." I know without a doubt this is true. I believe it is in our darkest moments we truly find ourselves. There wasn't really ever a time I felt completely lost before all of this happened, but now, I have a tremendously greater understanding for who I am and who I am supposed to become. I also have come to understand in a greater sense the work Heavenly Father has sent me to complete while I am on this earth. Another good friend of mine, for a project in which I had "forgotten" who I was, wrote this about my experience: "If you were to cut all your hair off, you would find a scar where they cut in to your skull to save your life, and where Jesus Christ showed you that you still have a work here to do." How powerful that is, and I know it with all my heart.

I love this song and wanted to share it with you. One stanza stands out to me:
"There is no doubt, that He has made me. He's giving me life with each breath I breathe, and I feel a debt to never forget Him." 

 
I truly feel a debt to NEVER forget Him. Ever. He has never forgotten me--never has, never will, and the least I could do for my Savior is to emulate His life to the best of my ability and remember Him in all that I do. And I feel fortunate in the fact that I have a huge scar on my head that will always be a reminder to me of the miracle of my life and the multitude of the Lord's tender mercies.
 
"For can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yeah, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee, O house of Israel. Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands; thy walls are continually before me."
(1 Nephi 21: 15-16)
 
 
On a more light-hearted note, this picture. I laugh every time I see it, and I hope you will too. Take notice of the word on the green in the background.
 
 
You know which word I'm talking about, right? Good. :) This picture serves to be a wonderful reminder that life isn't always going to be easy. Sometimes it's going to be really, really hard, but we need to remember to laugh. Laughing is so vital when going through hard times. Along with laughter, remember that there is a God in heaven who loves you more than you can comprehend and who is always looking out for you.
 
Thanks for reading my blog!
I hope you have the best day ever!! :D
 
All my love, Brianna 

2 comments:

  1. You are an amazing young woman! I mean, er, woman! You're so old!! ;). It was so good to see you this weekend! Love you! :)

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  2. I just found this treasure. Thank you for sharing your story.

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